Monday, August 30, 2010
i just feel like writing. i was supposed to study but hahaha pemalasnya aku.
so im now officially on a freakin' diet KOT. yes, im serious this time.zzz.my friends already boring here this sooo FAKE statement coming out from my mouth.com'on people, open your eyes. im fat. extremely FAT
i love to eat. eating is nice. you dont have to think about all the problems. you forget everything for a little while. just chew chew munch munch swallow swallow. easy. but now, i need to hate food. well not hate, just, you know, dont love em that much. k wtf apa ni.
so yeah, drink lots of plain waters, eat healthy, dont eat junk or fast food, eat more fruits and NO vegetables(I HATE VEGIES)yuckss, and lets go for a jog, or at least do some sit ups or anything healthy at home. thats my advice to those who wants to be thin and healthy!
and thats what im going to do, i guess. wish me luck!
tomorrow is holiday
so Happy 53th Birthday Malaysia
Sunday, August 22, 2010
Meski hati tak rela
bila dunia tak lagi untukku
sampai waktunya aku sendiri
hidup yang ku tak pasti
Langkahku terhenti tak mampu berlari
saat tangan yang di genggam engkau lepaskan
Aku bernafas tanpa udara
tangisku tiada airmata
oh kerana semuanya berlalu menghilang
dan tak akan kembali
Ku cuba menutup mataku
bila ku lelah untuk hidup
namun semuanya berubah di saat engkau hadir
Kau yang Anggun
Kau yang telah membuat aku kembali
ke jasadku yang telah mati
dan Kau sinarku cahaya yang terang
Untuk perjalanan ku yang lurus
di dunia sementara mengejar masa
itu pasti buat aku
dan bersyukurku adaNya
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Okay enough of that. These few weeks taught me that, you just have to close one eye and just forget the past, forgive, forget and move on. It's easier said than done, yeah I know. But moving on helps the most. Even friends, the ones that I can always count on. Those are the kind off people worth sticking around with. The ones that will always stand beside you through thick and thin.
And so, writing this entry has made me realize that everything happens for a reason.
I'm happy now.Im in love with myself
Thursday, August 19, 2010
Saturday, August 14, 2010
You know how they say the tube spoils the youths’ brains? Guess i would have to agree on that. Watched 3 chick flicks today. Gosh how it made a teenage girl think and dream so much. Those movies, how it made people to fantasise all those perfect proposals, the perfect boyfriend when they, actually do have their own rules, regulations, family traditions. Don’t we all have our own traditions and customs that we should abide? It’s true how the cable makes people wonder and ponder all kinds of stuff that doesn’t even makes sense. It gives people false hope. False dream. False everything. It’s a con. It’s horrible. But i guess it is normal for a normal human being to actually feel lonely. I guess it does feel good when there’s somebody that we know tht will always be be there in case of these kind of situation happens, you know, being left alone. You could just text a person. Or if that person’s kind enough, he or she’ll will give you a call of perhaps make sure you’re feeling okay. Or maybe say, ‘’if you need anything, i’ll be here’’. Sometimes it’s good to hear someone is actually being worried over you. Asking you whether you had lunch or are you doing okay there by yourself. Even a simple reassurance when we said we’re okay seems to mean everything to a person. Does everyone really do feel that, or it’s just me being all emotional and redundant? HAHA hey, blame the chick flicks. Sometimes it feels good if there’s a friend that you could hang on to. Through every situation regardless of what the consequences might come out to be. I know it’s impossible, what else at this kind of age. Some people may think that boyfriends are the best solution for this. I might say that i wouldn’t completely disagree on this. It just feels good sometimes. To know that there’s always this person who’d be the one to catch you when you’re falling down. Oh i know, you’d be asking, what about family? Don’t they matter? Of course they do. But what happens when they’re the one who made us feel that we’re in some kind of 100feet hole underground and there’s nowhere else to escape? What happens where they’re the one that we’re hoping to seek help, but they’re not there to ask help from. What happens when the only person you misses the most isn’t there to help you? You’re alone, with no one to call, no one to ask help, no kind of transportation. Scream all you care. No one would be there for you. What will you do? Will you wait? But for how long? Is it considered as exaggerating if i say that that particular person would feel there’s a huge hole in his or her heart that she’s been longing to fill it with something valuable? Something that matters. Something that could be cherished even if the moment or that thing had long gone. When that happens, there’s no other way but to do the only thing that any human being can do. One thing that he or she should have done first, which is to seek help to god. But what happens when that doesn’t help? That doesn’t work out? Keep trying, keep asking, keep begging Him. don’t lose hope, He’ll always be there. But sometimes a person could miss Him so much that the person would give Him everything just to feel that exact feeling again. That same feeling of peace, tranquillity, that feeling of being secured by Him. All those feelings when we cld feel tht we’re so close to Him. what had happen? How could that feeling have slipped away? What have that person done that it seems now that the feeling is so far away. And when that wrong feeling starts to take over, everything just doesn’t seem right. Oh how that person would give his own life just to get that feeling again. That feeling that we’re always being watched over. but everyone knows He still does. He will always do that. But we’re human. That person could have never escaped from making all kinds of mistakes in life. All the turns that person had made. All kinds of unanswered questions that are constantly being flowing from that person’s mind. Could that person get that feeling back? That person could, if that person tries the best she or he could. I guess that person is afraid. Afraid that everything that she or he does may not be accepted. But there’s no excuse to stop trying, right?
See what i mean when i said watching telly makes people think all kinds of stuff. It gives human being all sorts of idea that sometimes could come out to be something good, but most of the time; it goes the other way around. Ask my mom and dad, they would have agreed on this. Guess there’ll always be ideas and unanswered questions coming out from our minds every single second and every single minute of life. So what are we left to do? Guess it’s up to us to find our own answers. Find our own resolutions. Even if nothing seems to bring us the answer, there’s always Him for us to seek answer from. Have faith in whatever we do, have faith in Him. After all, He is the one who knows everything.
Wednesday, August 11, 2010
sbb mood:terkilan,terasa hati :(
hmmm aku msg some1 ni
yg penah aku kenal
aku wish SELAMAT BERPUASA je pun
susah ke nk reply tq or tanx at least
Aku xminx lebih pun
but its okay
at least aku try to be nice
its up to that person
Tuesday, August 10, 2010
People don't change for I-CAN-CHANGE-WHENEVER-I-WANT-AND-HOWEVER-I-WANT-IT-TO-BE situations. People change for some certain reasons, when things go bad, they became worst. When things getting good, they became a better, much better person.
I'm not too fussy about my life. I love my life, thank you, GOD for making my life is something I treasure the most.
For me, my beloved family and my fellow friends completed my life with joy. I don't need any other man to made my life felt worthless than ever.
There most probably I couldn't not count how many words that exist in this world but I love that person more than anything, I meant by literally anything else in this world.
I'd rather stick simple and not too complex. Because that's the way I kept myself low profile.
LOVE IS COMPLICATION. Real, passionate, romantic love is a complication. Two different genders attached but WILL SOON TO BE separated.
Abstract is realistic, why does abstract exist? Because that's what realistic means.
World isn't black or dull, world is colourful when you create it with happiness.
I USED TO. <- What do you meant by I used to when you did good deeds? Mean you are now doing no good to people at all?
Alia♥ HAPPY RAMADHAN by the wayyyy :)
Friday, August 6, 2010
I've changed y'knw. I won't be the person who kept on crying over some shit when things go bad. Nawh, I don't. But now I know, things were solved so I have nothing to worry about, it's all up to the person incharge to forgive and forget the past or not. But I did. it's all up to them if they wanna let the past go or not, I'm too fucked up at the moment, I let things off already. The only thing is, I'm not gonna solve things anymore, I'm too tired, I'm not a superhuman or wonderwoman. They are the ones who had to choose to continue with our friendship or not. I have nothing to lose, the most valuable ones are already stick with me through thick and thin. Through days that fly by, through everything. So yeah...
Thursday, August 5, 2010
im sooo bored. i realized that im having a rough time this week, i guess ,but nvm, i guess im used to it. hehe.
i miss my friends, alot, i wanna hangout with you people ):
Here goes the recipe for cookies for those who want to know:
1/2 cup castor sugar
1 3/4 cup self raising flour
2 teaspoon of cocoa powder
125 g butter
1/2 teaspoon vanilla essence
250 g chocolate chips
1/2 brown sugar
ALL MIXED UP AND HEAT AT 180 degrees.
Wednesday, August 4, 2010
im just making a short+quick update.
im so tired. i think im gonna stop being so busy now. i need to catch up on my studies. oh my sleeping cycle has been damaged tho. and i need to hibernate someday, somehow. its a must. yes it is
today is Alarick Weng birthday
Happy Birthday Alarick
ur gettin older dude!
so Im done
Monday, August 2, 2010
kau dah jumpa bf baru ke belum?
It has been about 7 months aku xgayut and msg sape2 since xde sapa nk kt aku
eh eh lupa,jangan marah kalau aku xreply msg kau b4 ni
aku x top up sekian lama
apsal dgn kau wey?tiba2 haaaaaaaa???
aku dh tau dh aku suka siapa
OH MA ARSE
btw kau tahu kenapa 'dia' ego and benci gila kt aku smpai skrg?tegur pun x dohhh
aku tau la aku kurang baik.huh.tp at least aku xde la berlagak cmtu
maybe dia perasan dia HOT gila b***,tu dia mcm tu
papa papa paparazzi!
Sunday, August 1, 2010
I can be the one - The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
I probably still adore you
With your hands around my neck
Or I did last time I checked-artic monkeys
Catching villians is no
Let me tell you how it goes
Curve's the word, spin's the verbs
Lovers it curves so freak what you heard-Klaxons
Play all night
Let's get it poppin
I'm in Miami bitch-LMFAO
I think I'll start a new life,
I think I'll start it over, where no one knows my name
I'll get out of California, I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover and fly him out to Spain-Augustuna
Everything is going to change,I guess lahh but Insya-Allah I hope its not going difference that much:) BUT hey ,we just need to go with the flowowow.haha
HAPPY AUGUST :)