Did I read it right?

Here we go again

so been busy with finals. and im officially free on next monday because its a MID SEM break!:)
..aaaa i love the smell of freedom. *sniff*

classes,examination was.... urghh. sucks to be me. because studying last minute doesnt even worth a bloody penny. sleepless night, endless cups of nescafes or coffees. eyebags. and my sleeping schedule are going bananas again. syllabus was soo bloody hard this semester. with your smart classmates all over the place but yaay I already got 1 paper and I thought Im gonna fail but yaay I passed,ngee.Its 'something'not so gempak la tapi :(over 20 by the way.im pretty much stressed. oh well, too late. should have studied long time ago. padan muka la. zzz

i havent watch movies for months now. GOD im so outdated. I NEED TO GO OUT.
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ok the end!

dah pagi!!

kenapa aku rasa macam xde sapa2 lgsg skrg
smue org cm benci je kt aku ke aku je rasa cmtu tp ada je yg okay
perasaan aku la tu
lgpun yg kelakarnya kawan aku ckp room8 diak kawan aku jgk cakap aku ni cm pening2 blur2 skit time sekelas dgn aku sem lepas tp yg terharu dia cakap aku BAIK-.-
ntah laa
tp okay lah,hdup alone pn okay je(sedap kan hati)
sbb lately,aku makan pn sorg2,tdo pn lewat etc lah tp sme bnd tu aku buat atas pilihan sndri
aku pn xtau asal aku xnk makan ramai2,join kwn2
mcm smue bnd aku nak buat SENDIRI
teruk kan cm kera sumbang (lama x guna peribahasa ni)
aku rasa ni smue tekanan nk exam or tekanan sbb this sem smue bnd cm xbest kot
aku mcm mls je nk enjoy sgt this sem tp ada 1 prob,aku suka gila beron9
sbb kwn2 aku yg jauh smue on9 so aku chat la dgn dorg rasa cm dorg konon2 ada kt dpn mata
cewah

tp btul la,maybe aku xreti cmpur org sgt pastu dorg pn cm xsuka aku dah
habit aku la tu makan sorg2,smue nk buat sorg2 or maybe sbb aku bdk baru,dorg ada partner aku sesat je dlm tu
tp ade la kwn2 bru,smue okay la
aku mmg cmtu la banyak bnd suka buat sorg2
kdg2 muka aku mmg xramah sgt lah
pastu maybe aku memilih sgt dlm berkwn
cmtu la ada kawan aku ckp
ye la kdg2 kne la memilih
klau x memilih susah
anyway,aku xde kawan baik pun
lepas banyak sgt bnd jadi,aku ambik keputusan xnak too close or jahat sgt dgn orang
rapat sgt-one day mesti akan gado
jahat sgt-one day mesti cm nk je kawan dgn dia
so neutral je la
sedar kan klau kte baik sgt some1 or kawan2 kita tu
then dia buat kita terasa,nak tegur pun payah
xtegur karang,luka berdarah pulak
cmtu la kdg2 jadi
last2 aku buat hal sndri je
:)
maybe at this moment,ni la bnd aku perlu buat
neutral je dgn smue orang
xramai kawan pun xpe la asal happy dgn kawan yg xbape ramai tu
okay aku xde idea dah plus dah nk dkt pukul 5 kot
kelas pkul 8(mesti lena punya)
p/s:xsbr g gombs,bosan sgt daa kt cnie:(
apsal aku rasa mcm perlu ke aku bgtau sme bnd ni kat blog
maybe sbb aku xtau nk bgtau kt sapa dah kot
cepat lah cuti cepat lah cuti cuti cuti!
okay bye

I dont wanna fall another moment into your gravity

Its funny when I read back my old blog posts, it's kinda emotional rite
Im always said that Im lonely and org blh cakap"hok aloh budak ni sedih2 cm sial macam aku xsedih or whatsoever".HAHA. Some of them, I dont even remember! Anyways, hello guys :)

Yes yes yes, I know this might be once in a blue moon kind of post, but I'm ever lazy. VERY. So just read up once in a while.
So far it almost a month or more Im here,in Nilai.Mid term are coming soon and this kinda worries me because my Psychology lecturer rarely entering our class because she has too many meetings.Urgh what Im gonna dooo?!!-.- okay boring cakap pasal ni like a whole times aku cakap dkt org ramai!!

At the same time, looking at the brightside, I think I'm learning a whole bunch of life skills. Umm, taking public transports, using public telephones, walking ABSURB distances, travelling around nilai and Kay-ell on a flat tires. All that stuff. Useless actually, but who knows what they might bring in the future?

Social wise, I think I'm sort of in a weird place now. I've beginning to make enemies and reality sinks in. There are tonnes of people out there who think I'm sombong, arrogant, bastard, stupid, bla bla bla. As for the sombong part, let me just say that I'm a very shy person :) I'm serious! I'm only crazy around people I know. People whom I'm not close with, I don't feel nice. I feel awkward around them. Thats why I'll be as quiet as a mouse.

For the bastard, insensitive and other, I would just like to say, life is cruel. I can be an ass at times so just deal with it. I can also be nice at times.I can be like Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde :D

anyway his theory
I reject his hypothesis tho.

hehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!
dats all for today
gtg now!kbye

Zzzzzzzz

I think relationships are messy and people’s feelings get hurt. Who needs it? We’re young, we live in one of the most beautiful cities in the world; might as well have fun while we can and, save the serious stuff for later
— Summer, (500) Days of Summer

i think im gonna be forever alone kind of person. im just tired. tired of waiting. tired of lies. tired of egos. tired of excuses. tired of being sad. tired of everything.

i just want someone to cheer me up now. make me laugh. make me smile.

i think Summer is right. (:

so hi?zzz. oh well, im so bored right now. zorro on my goat kill me.

and oh btw, i HATE MY FFFUUUFREAKING ASSIGNMENTS
i HAVE NO idea what to do bout em but I MUST finish em no matter what
urghh:/ but I didnt start anything yet

k bye

macam tgh blur tp tulis je laaa!

*lama aku x menulis..sbb busy sangat kot lately ni dgn assignments yang bertimbun wlpun aku xde la rajin mana nak siapkan smue2 tu
*rasanya x terlambat lg nk cakap Selamat Hari Raya Aidiladha kt smue;)
yaay,at last aku berjaya for the 1st time g smyg raya
klau x,jrg sgt la aku nk bangun pagi2 raya ni
:P
*cuti kejap je 4 days je pun,sobs!!nak CUTI LAGI!!
*sedihkan rasa bila kawan dah xboleh terima kita langsung
apa yang kte buat silap,dia mmg xboleh terima
buat la baik camna pun
macam dia je yang perfect selama ni
tpi at least kita tau,dia mmg utk kita ke x
*bru ni aku dgr 1 ayat,I dont wanna flashback,igt zaman bangang
I wanna look forward
aku mcm setuju dgn smue tu
aku rasa aku xpatut igt benda2 lama
smuenye wasting
what for kita nak igt org yg igt kita pun x
even tegur nak cakap hi or tny khabar pun xde respon
aku rasa maybe dia kenal aku pn xdah
so lets start a new life bebeh!
it almost a year neway and I can survive
yaaayy!:)
*WAJIB:focus study lagi dan lagi
*kurangkan makan??(HAHA)
*tgok movies banyak2
*last but not least,jaga kesihatan!!!(cewah)
*mesti jd lg better dri dulu:)amin

There this phase in life where nothing goes right. Even the smallest issue becomes a big of a deal. This is the changing phase. It's normal for us to find it really hard to accept the changes occuring around us. And in time, we change too. I have gone through quite a number of situations these past nineteen years. It wasn't all that easy. As a matter of fact, there were just too many incidents that kept on happening. But, I've learned so much. And everything that has happened, I made into life lessons for me to ponder on when I'm at my worst. I think I survived. No bruises, no cuts, no marks anywhere. Just maybe, a few black dots in my heart.

And for these past months, I must be honest, it hasn't been all that great. But, the bad moments are the moments that thought me the most. And the good moments are memories, I shall keep. I can't be more grateful to Allah, for blessing me for everything that I have and that has happened to me. I just hope, whatever happens next year, still makes me the person I am today. I can never change for people. If some think that I'm wrong and some think that I'm right, than which should I follow? I still think it should be me that dictates the flow of my life.

Reflecting yourself in the mirror is a good gesture. Don't just tell others to do it. We, ourselves should do it and look back to the things we have done.

Just, don't judge. It'll get you no where.